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John seals Shawn's room in black

Sadee and John attend Shawn's funeral

John visits the investigator to get the results

John receives a call and a text

John dreams

The family has pizza

We return home from the day at the beach

John and Sadee take the kids for an outing by the water

John and Sadee leave the hospital and go home

John and Sadee find their son Shawn floating in the pool

The family takes a little trip on a sunny afternoon.

John hires a private investigator to find out if Sadee is having an affair.

Some Brahms puts John uneasily to sleep, and in the morning he heads out while Sadee relaxes before the kids get up. |  | Music: Johannes Brahms, Romanze in F Major, Mark Budd, piano, IMSLP Petrucci Mus...

Sadee arrives home a little late from what does seem to be shopping. The next morning, John has conflicting feelings.

The kids and the grandparents are tired after a busy day at the backyard pool, and when they're in bed John waits alone in the den for Sadee to arrive back home.

John returns home from the pretend job fair and jumps into the pool with the kids.

John pretends to be at an administrative job fair.

Sadee and John head to the grocery store. Back home, while the kids are busy with their grandparents and Sadee is making dinner, John starts to make a list.

Sadee arrives home and John has to tell her yet again that he hasn't had any luck finding a job. John feels invisible.

John, married to Sadee, introduces his kids Lolly and Grady. The couple are careful about how and when they praise them. John got very little praise as a child, and didn't know how to react when his father did seem to offer some.